Kabe Heno Krpa, Labhiya E Jana

ॐ ajnana-timirandhasya jnananjana-salakaya caksur unmilitam yena tasmai sri-gurave namah I offer my respectful obeisances to Srila Gurudeva Srila Bhakti Vijnana Bharati Gosvami Maharaj and Srila Bhakti Vedanta Svami Prabhupada my eternal benefactors, to all the Guru parampara and to all the Vaishnavas.

Dear Gurudeva, the day of your sacred appearance is coming, another year has passed since your physical disappearance from this world. How I wish I was close to you wherever you are. I feel unable to glorify you in words, but my feelings and my respect for you have no limits. I feel the lack of a great soul like you here on this earth. What I would give to sit a little near your lotus feet and hear your voice instructing me and reproaching me with love. What I would give to see those sweet eyes of yours bathed in the balm of love for Radha and Krishna.

Thanks to these sacred days, like your appearance and your disappearance, I can rekindle that feeling of separation towards you, which, alas, is sometimes fading away in everyday life.

Despite having spent little time with you, it is as if I knew you very well, thanks also to the stories about you that you send me through the Vaishnavas. I would never stop reading the stories about you. When an article is finished I am desperate because it is as if the time to be with you has expired.

In this material world everything has a beginning and an end, even these strong feelings of love are destined to stop because of the world around us. Dear Gurudeva, when is that these feelings will be permanent? ?? When is it that the ecstatic party with the devotees will never end??? When is it that I will also come to sing and dance with you in the spiritual world ??? Will you give me your hand to pull me up from this material world when is my time, even though I am such a fallen and conditioned soul ???

Please forgive me if I have ever committed offenses, knowingly or unknowingly.

You are the great pride of my life, I am proud that Krishna has sent me a great soul like you to save me. You are, for me, and not only, an example of an exemplary and impeccable life.

Please continue to guide me and bless me by having the company of some great vaishnavas from whom I can take inspiration to continue living in the spirit of service in this world. Help me to give me the strength necessary to destroy at the root all conditioning, gross or subtle. To transform the defects of my character into great virtues.

Stay close to me every step of my life and help me not to lose the path and not make bad decisions.

To conclude, I would like to offer you from the bottom of my heart the pray "Gurudeva" which is so simple but at the same time full of every meaning and the one that best suits me. Gurudev! Kripa-bindu diya, koro’ ei dase, Trnapekha ati hina Sakala sahane, bala diya koro’ , Nija-mane sprha-hina Sakale sammana, korite sakati, deho’ natha! jathajatha tabe to’ gaibo, hari-nama-sukhe, apaeadha ha’ be hata kabe heno krpa, labhiya e jana, krtartha hoibe, natha! sakti-buddhi-hina, ami ati dina, koro’ more atma-satha jogyata-vicare, kichu nahi pai, tomara karuna sara karuna na hoile, kandiya kandiya, prana na rakhibo ara With affection and gratitude Your servant Vandana dasi